Freaky Friday.

Hello lovelies, how has your week been? I’m stuck in the hamster wheel that is a trauma disorder. I’ve decided that it’s time to be honest but it’s hard to do this when your livelihood depends on your creativity, contract work, and outside sources. It’s the fastest way to get zero work, which means zero earnings, which equals more anxiety LOL.

Don’t worry I’m not going to bang on about it in a doom and gloomish way. However it’s a relief to come clean about it, and it’s actually quite interesting how my brain has changed – it simply doesn’t work the same way as before.

Pre violent neighbour I could pull a bag of fabric out of the cupboard and whip together a beautiful quilt without any thought or effort. I can’t do that anymore, my brain only sees chaos in that bag of fabric. It’s like a jigsaw puzzle that I can’t put back together no matter how hard I try.

It’s the same when I go to a fabric store. I know what I want, but the moment I walk into the store I can’t concentrate on all the different fabrics. Suddenly everything is a jumbled mess and I can’t think. I get overwhelmed very easily. Both by projects and people.

I can no longer work on multiple projects either. Before I could work on four, five, six quilts at one time without any effort. Now… well it’s taken four months to put together the pig quilt LOL. I’m still laughing. Thank God I was blessed with a strong (life-saving) sense of humour.

It’s not the end of my creativity, I just need come at it in a different way. For instance, if I organise my fabrics before I start my project I can progress to the next step more easily. I really have to re-learn how to work, change my habits, turn chaos into order. Most of all I need to be kind to myself and stop worrying that people think I’m totally mad LOL.

So lovely people, here’s to Day #1 on my journey to recovery. I won’t promise it will be a smooth ride but life never is, is it?

xx

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8 comments

  1. I am sorry to hear of your struggles. I love your work but can understand what you are saying. I have Fibromyalgia and have similar issues. Learning new ways to deal with familiar situations can be fin and frustrating at the same time. Best wishes to you. Cherie

    On Fri, Mar 22, 2019, 4:41 AM The Red Boot Quilt Company wrote:

    > The Red Boot Quilt Co. posted: “Hello lovelies, how has your week been? > I’m stuck in the hamster wheel that is a trauma disorder. I’ve decided that > it’s time to be honest but it’s hard to do this when your livelihood > depends on your creativity, contract work, and outside sources. It’s t” >

  2. So glad you are finding your “New way” to work. Your positive attitude and sense of humor will get you through this -even if it has its ups and downs. Hang in there !!!

  3. I would like to get your free block if the month you are doing. I could not find where to sign up but if I receive your news letter will it come that way? Your quilts are sooooo cute and colourful. You are so creative!

    Keep up the great work

    Sheila

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    • Hi Sheila, thanks for your lovely message. I’m not taking sign-ons for the BOM however you can find the downloads on this website. Go the homepage then use the menu at the top of the page to find the “This Little Piggy” heading. Click on the heading and it will take you to the page where I’ve listed the downloadable files. I can’t send the files out via the newsletter but I will use it to let everyone know when the next block is available. I hope you are having a lovely week, toni xx

  4. It will all come back in it’s own good time, these things can’t be rushed. If I can help you just need to say. We are all mad, I think it is a pre-requisite for creativity.

  5. It will all come back in it’s own good time. If I can be of any help you just need to say.

  6. Toni sincerely I mean this from my life experience. You need to take care of yourself first. I live with a Chronic very complex painful misunderstood illness. Someone said to me recently. You can’t be creative when not well or under a lot of stress. I find sewing is my only peace and sanity. I love working with my hands to sew. But unusual for me I had periods where I could not see. Wasn’t interested not motivated. I am enjoying it again now. I still have more than enough stress and actual luck a lot of loss. We’re human Toni and sometimes we just need to give ourselves time and love. Thinking of you and wishing you all the best xxx

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