I’m not sure how to write this but I’ve been put in a situation where I feel I need to explain why I haven’t been around much lately.
The ongoing situation with our neighbour has worsened and a great deal of the violence and malevolence is now being aimed at us. Just after the New Year my daughter and I bore the brunt of what I can only describe as a terrifyingly violent and threatening act. We weren’t harmed physically, thank goodness, because there was a ‘weapon’ involved and it was brandished at us. For me it was a defining day. **
You’ll be proud of me, I stood between my family and this person – an angry and protective Mama Bear. However weeks later I’m still shocked and reeling from the effects. I’m both angry and numb. Scared but defiant, and so, so tired. I’ve been pushed well beyond my limits of empathy, understanding, and tolerance. My self-confidence has plummeted to sub-zero levels and I’m finding it difficult to be positive and productive. Strangely I’m embarassed to share my quilts with you.
I try not to overshare these things, more than once I’ve been told to stick to writing about quilting. I could pretend that everything is rainbow fabric and applique unicorns but the truth is some days I can barely breath from the fear and anxiety I (we) live with. It is so much easier to tell you I’m unwell (you must think I’m always sick!) than tell the simple truth that we’re living in an intolerable situation that we haven’t yet been able to escape from. xx